Rides

It's not all chaos over here. Let me not ruin your expectations. It's merry, to be honest. I wouldn't want to put my focus more on the bad than good. Cause the good is a lot. The rides you can't forget. That's when every song is about you, every food you taste confuses you, ever path you step is all for you. It doesn't matter if the world's prying, waiting to pounce on you... You just have to enjoy the moment while it lasts. You'll day dream about trips, walks, adventures and have so much planned for you. It's beautiful, I know. Thinking about your present and future. Reliving the moments you couldn't have had with the past. You get caught up in the moment. These good rides are like waves though, there comes a time when the sea is so calm that you'd think you're in heaven. You'll enjoy the beautiful tides, the scotching sun with the clear sky. Then comes the bad rides. You'll have to make it through the day quiet, thinking hard of how you got yourself here. You stumble and fall, you spend your free time hurting. Your bad rides don't come expectedly: one time you all caught up in the moment then the next you hating yourself. The position you put yourself in. You don't know when you'd get back up... But eventually you do, you be the bigger person, say sorry and let life go on. You still hurt deep down but you have to acknowledge the fact that you had you in that position. There are the ups and downs of you being in that situation. You have to pull through because you're growing, you're learning, you're knowing different kinds of people out here, that's the universe opening your eyes. But the universe won't let the rides get to you that bad. The universe doesn't forget. 

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