OutOfMind

They say you never hit rock bottom if you haven't faced death yet, so why would you give up on something, rather someone. Why give up on your heartfelt desires if you haven't had a slight taste of them. New beginnings doesn't mean you give up on your old desires in life. New beginnings means doing different, approaching differently, changing your ways, not being predictable. New beginnings is forgiving yourself for having made the wrong decisions; buh ain't those wrong decisions that make you human? New beginnings is you taking that step to say Yes to everything. "Stop, it ain't right," they say... "That's not what we taught you," ... "You move on quick," ... "You shouldn't wear this, you shouldn't wear that," ... "That's not the right person for your future, you can do better," Bluh Bluh Bluh. I say; fuck society, fuck fake friends, fuck what people think, it's all about you. Cause G...

Out of sight, out of mind. But out of sight, boy I can't get you out of my mind. The lies, the damages, the pain, the extortion. You're out of my sight but I still feel the distraction on my mind. I can't get you out of my mind because, I couldn't get everything off my chest. Here I am, however out of sight you may be, here I am laying it all out for you. I sure did lie at times, I sure was unfaithful. I did let go cause I felt that we had let go of everything,  the talks, the plans, the trips, the dates, late night shenanigans. Out of mind but still by my side. I did all I did because I couldn't get what I wanted from you. Selfish as I was, I still thought about you. Even so, you were on my mind. I made those moves and to be honest I ain't regreting any of them. I did know about your unfaithful ways. I did my homework and I stayed silent on all those occasions. I am sorry for the spite and troubles buh it was more to that in our involvement. There w...

Betrayal is treachery, a stab in the back like Judas' kiss to Jesus. If tit for tat was a game, we'd all be blind... If tit for tat was a game, we'd all be dead. Do me I do you. It's how love is these days: it ain't about the feeling no more. It's about what you bring to the table. Material benefits that attracts you to a man..or a woman. That's when you feel like you ain't receiving enough, you ain't being treated enough. So you decide to seek refuge in another land, passion in another woman, solace in another man. You don't find it wrong, at first. You just want to feel. You want to be loved. You become selfish. Why? Cause this lady/this lad, they have given you the heaven you think you deserve. But do you really deserve it if you are doing it behind someone else's back? Do you think you deserve the happy if you're walking all over someone else's trust? You think you're playing your cards right. You're smooth, le...

Am sure this is not new to you; you have done it, once to a million times. To your friends, classmates, parents, guardians, colleagues, even to a stranger. Dear, you've told someone else's secrets once in a while. It's not all about secrets though; it's how you talk about others, the image you create on others about somebody else, it's how you make others change their views on someone else's values or beliefs. You don't know shit, but you ruin someone's life with that little lie. You've been disloyal, you've lied to get your ass out of trouble, that single excuse and the whole world will know how shady this other person is. Say, the tale of the scorpion and the frog. The scorpion asks the frog to carry him across the river, at first the frog is afraid that he'll be stung by the scorpion, but the scorpion argues that if he did, then they both will drown. The frog then agrees and carries him, but midway, the scorpion stings the frog...

It's not all chaos over here. Let me not ruin your expectations. It's merry, to be honest. I wouldn't want to put my focus more on the bad than good. Cause the good is a lot. The rides you can't forget. That's when every song is about you, every food you taste confuses you, ever path you step is all for you. It doesn't matter if the world's prying, waiting to pounce on you... You just have to enjoy the moment while it lasts. You'll day dream about trips, walks, adventures and have so much planned for you. It's beautiful, I know. Thinking about your present and future. Reliving the moments you couldn't have had with the past. You get caught up in the moment. These good rides are like waves though, there comes a time when the sea is so calm that you'd think you're in heaven. You'll enjoy the beautiful tides, the scotching sun with the clear sky. Then comes the bad rides. You'll have to make it through the day quiet, thinking hard of...

  You ever wondered how you’d survive without a certain part of your body? How malfunctioned you’d be when you lost it? How dead the surrounding parts feel after losing their dependent factor? Have you ever thought, “Oh wait, am gonna die after this, it’s my fucking end?!” But what if the loose of this certain body part is a way to open your mind. Yes, you’re hurt, yes there are damages done, but think of it this way: it being the key to set you free from whatever that's holding you back. You’ll feel the pain for a while, but that won’t stop you from stitching up and keeping germs off your wound. You’ll have to find a way to fix it and look strong while doing so. You’ll be mad at your recklessness or at the world for turning, but you’ll never have that part back so why not embrace that part of you?... Living with it, your new normal: how your whole body accepts the fact that even after losing this one part, it’ll still find a way to function. You’ll heal. You’ll move on...