For my heart

Out of sight, out of mind. But out of sight, boy I can't get you out of my mind. The lies, the damages, the pain, the extortion. You're out of my sight but I still feel the distraction on my mind. I can't get you out of my mind because, I couldn't get everything off my chest. Here I am, however out of sight you may be, here I am laying it all out for you. I sure did lie at times, I sure was unfaithful. I did let go cause I felt that we had let go of everything,  the talks, the plans, the trips, the dates, late night shenanigans. Out of mind but still by my side. I did all I did because I couldn't get what I wanted from you. Selfish as I was, I still thought about you. Even so, you were on my mind. I made those moves and to be honest I ain't regreting any of them. I did know about your unfaithful ways. I did my homework and I stayed silent on all those occasions. I am sorry for the spite and troubles buh it was more to that in our involvement. There was more to that love we never talked about and touched on. I still love you even though you're out of sight. You found another, so am out of your mind. You pushed me away and that left me broken despite your promises of a mutual friendship. Well since am not out of your sight and out of your mind, I wish you the very best. And I wish I'd get you off my mind.

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